Addiction comes in many forms, the most conmen and I guess ones we most associate addiction with are Alcohol, Cigarettes and drugs but we forget there are other addictions that can be just as serious.
I have witnessed addiction, I would say my entire life. My father is/was an alcoholic he left my mum and I when I was 2 and I have had an on off relationship with him ever since. The one thing about him is that he works very hard but he drinks just as hard, why he drinks I never found out but I guess it was because his father was also an alcoholic. I offered help some years ago before my little lady entered the world but I guess at that time he was just not ready to give up the drink and wouldn't admit that he had a problem. So is addiction a genetic illness (I say illness as that is what I see it as)? I have always been so very careful to not go down that route, being dependant on substances is not great but I have always been aware that I have an addictive personality.
Before you judge anyone please consider their circumstances. I have never judged anyone for their addiction or illness there must be something that drives them to their addiction in the first place.
So where am I going with this? I have an addiction. My addiction is to sugar. I have had a dodgy relationship with food all my life. I have gone through stages of not liking food and managing to hardly eat anything at all to the complete opposite where I constantly eat, as you can imagine I have therefore been very small fitting into a UK size 6 to being a little chubby in a UK size 14. I have a constant mental battle with my feelings towards food but most in particular with high sugar foods which I often cant get enough of and is in most foods.
I feel like I am constantly on a diet these days and of late my weight & self body image have really gotten me down but often the draw of sugar is what lets me down. I did try the 'I quit sugar' book but found it very time consuming to sort the menu's out for it and although we do eat fresh cooked food most days here in the little house in the corner and very rarely buy pre-packed processed food I do tend to eat sweets, chocolate, biscuits and high sugar foods because they are convenient. As much as I want to loose weight and be healthy I always struggle to give up the sugar, as soon as I have a little piece of chocolate I know I want more!
So in my eyes the biggest step is putting it out their and saying 'yes I have a problem' granted I don't see this addiction as being as serious as alcohol/drug dependency but it can have serious health implications in long term, so I am holding my hands up and saying yes I am a sugar addict, I struggle to say 'no thank you' to the sugar filled foods so this is what I am going to do.
I am going to do something about it. Yes I will continue to bake my weekly cake but I'm going to look for low sugar alternatives and I am going to seek low sugar foods. I know that once I have sugar I will want more. I am not going to quit sugar entirely as I think it is not entirely possible but I am going to cut down on the serious amounts of sugar that I eat and look for a healthy more balanced diet.I am a big believer of a little of what you like does you good and the minute you restrict something the more you crease it.
Now that I have told the world that I am a sugar addict I am going to do my best to maintain a healthy balanced and low sugar diet.
Does anyone else suffer with this problem? do you have any suggestions for me to help me on my way?